Concentrating on my Concentration

So here's the idea. I was thinking about myself as a child, and how most of us little boys wanted to be like our dad--to please our papas. As little children, we gravitate to our same-sex parent. But as we reach adolescence and begin maturing, we are pulled to the care and attention of our mothers (if we are guys) and to our fathers (if we are girls). Dads praise their daughters, buy them things, care for them, (maybe too much) and protect them from evil young men that want to get in their pants. But it is the other side of the spectrum that I want to focus on, seeing as how I am becoming a man, not a woman. It is at this point in our lives that we grow to be as tall as our moms (they can't believe it!), and then we grow taller than our moms, and then even so much taller that we have to adjust the leg room of the driver's seat maybe a foot or two when we drive her car. Our moms baby us sometimes. They buy us gifts spontaneously, shower us with expectations, prepare us for prom, and want to talk to us about our feelings. During the latter years of high school, the amount of tension between mothers and their sons winds tighter, and the amount of emotional exchange burns brighter as well. This is my senior year. It is the year before I move to California and no longer see my mom every day. Maybe I'll see her a fifth of the entire year. Did she do a good job preparing me for this? No longer will I have a hot egg waiting for me on a white plate in the morning, there will be no more "Did you do your homework?" and no more seven-up brought to me when I have a cold. I'll be on my own. Most of us will be. My concentration is centered around these question: How does a mother-son relationship change over the course of the son's final years under her roof? How does a son spend his last saturated year with his mother, in spite of his urge to be independent from her? Is their mutual dettachment something to cry over, something beautiful, or something in between?

So I was looking at photographers online and stuff and I came across this girl's site. Nirrimi photography or something. It looked simple and I thought man I wish I had a website. There was this link down low, and now I have my very own miniature website! Its not much, but its exciting.

keltonphoto.carbonmade.com

This picture that you see is my first semi-successful HDR (high dynamic range) photograph. I put my camera on a tripod and took three different pictures of the same thing. One at low exposure, one at normal exposure, and one at high exposure. It ends up capturing the lightest lights and the darkest darks in one stunning image. Thanks. I mean its not that cool its just a river. But the colors are cool, and see how there is a white halo around the tree? That's because I have a sub-par camera that falls short in combining multiple-exposure shots. So I'm looking forward to my nikon d90

Bailar

New Camera

This is going to be expensive. I got really excited because I saw on the Nikon website that a D90 is $899.99, and I was like sweet! I'll have that much in a couple weeks. But then I realized that that is how much it costs just for the body. A D90 with a lens is $1200 and up. It'll be a bit longer before i get my dream camera. Not to mention I was planning on getting a 10.5mm fisheye lens too, which is $700 by itself.

But I've got to invest in a good camera. Whatever I get, it will pay for itself. That's how I'm looking at it.

I'm glad I have a job.